Just a single gal navigating the terrifying jungle of life, motherhood and dating sites while trying to maintain some sanity through comedy... and vodka.
Alcohol, single parenting and HORRIBLE dating experiences, what could go wrong?
Oh, Men. Is empathy still an active emotion with you? While you're filling my inbox with 11 messages of condolences as thinly veiled offers of dinner and drinks within 2 days of my heart being broken, do you think you're healing me? I'm barely holding myself together with grace so I guarantee I won't be as kind and diplomatic as I might have otherwise been when I tell you I'm not ready. Then, I'm going to feel guilty about the harshness I'm displaying or just completely ignoring you but can't do anything to stop the guilt because that's the type of person I am. Don't put either of us through that. Pain takes time to heal. I'm not ready for you to hurt me. Yes, that's what I expect, because I'm currently still hurting. I'm so sick right now I can barely eat. Dinner with you isn't even physically appealing. If I have drinks with you I'm going to get emotional and cry all over you about the despair I'm currently fee...
I’ve made mistakes. Boy, have I made mistakes! Sometimes those thoughts keep me up at night. Maybe you know what I’m talking about …you’re trying to sleep and your chest tightens with anxiety when that memory pops in your head of that one embarrassing thing you said/did 8 years ago (or yesterday!). Really!? Really, brain? I can’t remember whether I fed the dog tonight but you bring this up? Well, extra dinner for Ollie and extra coffee for me! Thank goodness for Grace! Thank goodness for the ability to LEARN from our mistakes… to give them purpose. I have so much to learn and I know I can plan on a few more doozies before I figure it all out, but my mistakes serve a purpose and I can only hope the MANY moments of ‘Aw, shit. What the hell was I thinking?!’ lead me to finding peace in whatever my future holds… and if I hope my future holds love and vodka, who could really blame me? 😉 #lifelovevodka
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